Starting School

This year I had to transfer schools. My parents apparently think that I am completely in charge of myself now. Don't get me wrong I like the independence, but I still can't do everything myself. And my dad for some reason thinks that just by knowing who the message is from he knows what the message is about too. It annoys the crap out of me. If I had done something like listen to an important message to the school i was suppose to be transferring to he would have yelled at me.

My parents always tell me that I think that I know everything, but the real thing is that they think that they know everything and that isn't the case is it. Sometimes when you're wrong just say you are wrong.

Expectation and Money

I've got way to many expectations, it sucks. It sucks to have people always wanting things from you. Wanting things done right then and there like they do everything for you. Like you ask them for everything. When in fact since you were a kid you've been hiding the things that you really want so you don't make trouble. After a while you make yourself seem like...like asking for little things are too much.

Even when we were financially sound we always got things for $4 or $5. God forbid you like something for $10 then it'd be to expensive. It's to the point where my stupid sister thinks that a shirt that should be worth $20 is too expensive. Everywhere we go it's always cheap, cheap, cheap.

I'm being a brat, but it's stupid. Cute little notebooks that I want for school because it's $3 I don't dare ask we'll go get the cheap 50cent notebooks that suck.

That's why my goal in life is to be able to never look at the tag. I want to be able to pick up a $20 shirt and buy it without any sense of, "this is too much."

Destination

If only this was an original blog, however I believe that there may have been thousands like this before. I am unfortunately the most boring person ever. So boring in fact that all i can do is look to the future. Although I have such big dreams I don't think that I ever really aspire to much. My parents maybe the only parents that really don't want their kid to get a job. I need to be able to get into some school. I am only looking at college. I want to be prepared. I don't want to be one of these kids that are blinded. I've got three years till then, but I still am planning in my head. And that is my whole probably. I am a thinker and not a doer. The idea of what I am going to do is brilliant and perfect, but I never get around to doing it. It kills me every time. I believe that if I can continuously keep up with this blog than at least I am doing something with my pathetic life. I want to be relevant in my future.

First order of business

Gandhi said, "Whatever you do may seem insignificant to you, but it is most important that you do it. "

It's basically saying that little small things that you might do every single day may not mean much to you, but in the long run it is important. I feel like I can't relate to this quote at all. I fee like my life right now as it is, is so insignificant that it's impossible to even be able to do anything important with it.

My goal is that I would be able to do something that changes life as we know it. Or at least changes my life, I want to be able to go back and be able to remissness about something I did. About some risk that I took that changed my life or the life of someone else.

This blog may be insignificant, but I want to be able to make it important to me.

That is my first order of business.